Happy Late 18th Birthday Baby Duck!!!!

I am really behind as usual so I have to give a big shout out to Dominick! I miss you so much and I am so excited for you to be the big 18!!! Now remember that you are now legally an adult and can be held accountable for all your mischief so be careful.

These last eighteen years have been a blast. You always bring a smile to my face and I love having you for my little brother. I am so lucky to have you in my life! Love you baby!

Happy Birthday Baby!

Sawyer -

I can't believe that you are 1 today. I can't even remember what my life was like before you were here. I love you more everyday and I am so grateful that God gave you to me. I am so blessed to be your mother. You bring a light into my life that grows brighter everyday. This last year has been amazing, we have all grown so much. You are my love and my life!

Just one year ago today we had just met for the first time. Even though I carried you with me for almost 10 months I didn't truly know you until I held you in my arms. You are the best parts of both your dad and I. You are my heart! I have watched you grow and change everyday. You have gone from a little 7lb 1oz beautiful bean to my big, gorgeous, laughing, strong willed, independent, funny, smiling, and loving little boy! Today is such a bittersweet day for me. I am so happy that you are growing up and reaching all the wonderful milestones, but I am also so sad that you are changing so quickly. One minute you were my baby and the next my little boy. Time moves to quickly sometimes. Every time you call my name my heart just bursts with happiness. Every night when I hold you in my arms and rock you to sleep I kiss your beautiful head and am so grateful that you are mine! Just so you know, you will always be my baby!

I love you so much!

Our Trip to Primary Childrens....

We have had a very busy couple of weeks. Sawyer was diagnosed with RSV back on the 1st of February. My poor baby had the worst little cough and a lot of shortness of breath along with a really bad fever. We were giving him breathing treatments every four hours around the clock to try and help. On Wednesday the 3rd we were having quite a bit of trouble keeping his fever down and he was starting to get very dehydrated. Our pediatrician recommended that we take him to the E.R. at Primary Children's. So off we went.

It was so hard to see him getting an IV placed and to have his nose and lungs suctioned. It broke my heart! They ended up having to admit him because he was only sating in the lows 80's. His poor little body was working so hard to breath that he was unable to keep his temp down. We had been fighting a temp of between 103.5 and 104.5.

We were in the hospital until Sunday the 7th. While we were there they administered IV fluids, breathing treatments and suctioning. They ended up having to give him IV Rocephine due to a very bad ear infection as well. He was so lethargic, he would just lay in my arms. It was as if every part of his little body was hurting. I think that this was the hardest part for me. Seeing my sweet, rambunctious little boy just laying there so sad and hurting.

We were sent home on oxygen and were told that he would need to follow up with his pediatrician that next day. We would also be required to take him to the suctioning clinic at least 2-3 times daily. He saw his doctor every day last week and had the suctioning done and was finally taken off the oxygen on Friday. He was very happy to no longer be attached to any machines.

He is starting to get back to his old little self, talking, cruising and laughing. I love this little boy so much! We are so grateful to the wonderful staff at Primary's. The Doctors and Nurses and all the other staff were so kind and caring. We are so lucky to live in a city that has such a wonderful resource. I know that they probably don't get the praise they deserve but I can't thank them enough.

I am the worlds worst mom!

Today we had the first of many accidents(or so I am told). My poor little bean took a header off of our bed. I feel horrible! The poor little guy was asleep with dad while I was getting ready for work. Dominic got up and Sawyer was still sleeping. So he proceeded to surround him with pillows and came out to the kitchen for a cup of coffee. The next thing you know I hear a horrible thump. Dominic runs in to the bedroom and there is my little bean on a pile of Dominic's clothes. Thankfully last night Dom didn't listen to me when I was yelling at him, telling him to put his dirty clothes in the hamper. I guess dirty clothes on the floor are good for something.

Sawyer is fine, I think he was more startled than anything. I just feel like crap because how often are you told never to leave your children unattended. Well just one more lesson I am learning as a new mom. I love this little guys soooo much!

Just had to add a few of the more recent pictures, I will have to get my Christmas pictures up soon, just bare with me.

Miss you much!

I was telling Sawyer a story this morning. I was talking about what a fantastic drummer you were. How you would get so wrapped up in your music that you would just tune the rest of the world out. I think that he is going to take after you, he loves his drum. He loves to pound out his own little rhythm. I was also telling him how much you loved your Lego's, he love his too! You are both so alike in so many ways! I know that you guys would have been best buddies!

We love you!

Love - A

The best gift I have every recieved!

No gift I could ever get would beat this! I love this boy so much! I thank God everyday for my beautiful boy! Merry Christmas everyone. I hope that you all have a wonderful New Year.

A few more pics. Isn't he beautiful?

I am already in love with him and I haven't even met him yet! Can you blame me, he is so gorgeous! Look at those little feet and that darling double chin. What a sweetie, I just want to snuggle him. It looks like he is already loved by big brother Myles too!